It's Here... *plays ominous music in background*

It's out and official: The release of the GCE A' Levels results will be on this Friday, 2.30pm.

When I first got this news from my friend, I was at work. And then I freaked out.

And then the smses started flooding in. Everyone was telling everyone else about the big news.

I've been in denial for the past week cos the release date wasn't confirmed. But now it is.

Frankly I don't know what kind of results I'd get. I've got friends who are excited about the big day. Friends who've been consistently getting good grades. But I haven't, and I must admit, I'm scared to death.

Even though at work, I was typing out an interview schedule, my entire mind was screaming "Ahhhhh RESULTS AHHHHH!!!" Looking back now, I always think, that I could have done more. There're always "If only"s. If only I had studied harder. If only I had woken up earlier to study. If only I had paid more attention in math lectures. If only... If only...

But all that kind of thinking is useless at this point of time. The results are out. It's fixed. No amount of thinking or worrying can change that. But despite it all, I'm still terrified. What if I can't get into the course I want? And worse still, what if I can't even get into a local university?

But it's all over now. And like Pris said, I can only ask God's grace to be with me now. It's all in God's hands.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own
understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and He will make your paths straight.
-Proverbs 3:5-6